Loneliness

What is Loneliness??

A feeling, an emotion that somebody is not with you, or that nobody is with you at all.

For many, it could be fleeting or temporary - missing a loved one that you have not seen for a period but know that you will again. For some, it may be more severe such as the permanent separation or loss of someone who has been an integral part of your life. In both these situations it can be overcome over time.

For a rare few it is a permanent feeling, entrenched deep inside, that time will not diminish. A close relationship may initially help to reduce the pain but it will eventually surface again.

I have felt lonely inside for as long as I can remember, but is this feeling justified? Am I really lonely?

I have such amazing friends who listen intently and offer encouraging advice whenever it is needed. It is no coincidence that whenever I feel down a friend will often call or send some kind words just to let me know they care. Good friends will be with me for life.

In a time of need my family is always there to provide love and support. It doesn't matter how much or little you've spoken to them recently, or how annoyed you are with one another. None of this matters when support is required.

How many people can say they have a wonderful, happy, bright, mischievous, loving son who always sees the best in you? There's no room to feel lonely while playing trains or dinosaurs with the one person who utterly adores you.

What about those dear to me who have passed away and moved to a better place...they are still around to guide me and ensure that my life stays on the right path. Their presence and comfort, no matter how transparent, ensures that I am never lonely.

It's impossible to be lonely when you realise that you are so deeply connected to every living thing on this planet...people, animals, trees...everything.

So what's left?

I can only ever really feel lonely when one person is not fully there for me...ME.

All I need is to show a fraction of the love, kindness and support to myself that my friends, family, my son, spirits and the world already show me.

But finally I am here for me - that simply means being myself so that the real me does not feel lost somewhere deep inside. And being myself is about being kind to and helping others.

So I think I have solved it...I am not really lonely at all.

This feeling no longer has a rightful place inside me, so....goodbye forever!!!

Finding the Right Path

Life is an unusual journey.

I have made many mistakes in my life, the biggest and most damaging only recently. Yet despite the intense pain and hurt arising from knowing I have inflicted the same upon others, this time it is different.

This time I could not hide, flee or deny. This time I had to stand, face the truth and accept the consequences. This time I have to pay a heavy price and pay these dues openly.

This time it is like my eyes have finally been opened. This time I can finally see to the core of the problem that has been burdening me for most, if not all, of my life. This time I am ready to deal with this problem head on so that I can leave it behind once and for all.

This time I will move forward to a happier and more fulfilling life.